First and foremost, I don’t care about Bonnie dying. That’s not the part that pisses me off and has me in a rage. It’s the stuff that came before. The stuff to do with Elena, of course.
So Bonnie didn’t get to say goodbye to Jeremy. Still. Even though the veil was dropped because of her. Elena gets the pay off and is the only one who gets it. Elena got to run the emotional gamut up to and including wanting Jeremy to STAY dead and they still reach back and give her a goodbye.
And then it got better. Bonnie wants to bring Jeremy back, and she wants to bring him back for Elena, because Elena needs him, and this was her plan all along.
THIS is what I meant when I said I don’t trust the show with regards to what they’re doing with Beremy. They were acknowledging Bonnie’s feelings for Jeremy (and Jeremy’s feelings for Bonnie) only up to a point. This is why the most anyone ever said since he died was that she “cares” about him. They used Beremy, acknowledged them just enough to keep the plot moving but in the end it was.all.handed.to.Elena. After saying “I feel this way about you” and saying “I’m glad we’re here together” and saying “Doesn’t bother me” and saying “Fuck the cure, heal Bonnie first” Jeremy 1) goes to Elena first when she wasn’t in any trouble all that time before but (most egregious) 2) SEES BONNIE AND ALL HE GIVES HER IS A HUG!
Fuck this ENTIRE shit. Bonnie’s laughing and teary at prom and asking “is this real” and stumbling to go dance with Jeremy, AND WHEN SHE SEES HIM AND SAYS SHE’S GOING TO BRING HIM BACK THE REASON THAT COMES OUT OF HER SLAVING MOUTH IS “Elena needs him” AND SHE HAS THE NERVE TO SAY THIS WAS THE PLAN ALL ALONG!
Caroline Dries wrote this episode. She wrote the crap in 4.19. Why the HELL, as the person who wrote both episodes, does she have ZERO damn continuity in regards to Bonnie’s feelings?
I’ll say it right now, I don’t think I’ve ever said it on the podcast, but there are moments when I come SO close to hating the hell out of Bonnie. And my hatred always comes when Bonnie’s being extra white-struck as fuck, sacrificing every damn thing for Elena, including her body, while expecting JACK SHIT IN RETURN BECAUSE EVERYTHING ELENA DOES AND DOESN’T DO TO HER IS BEAUTIFUL AND EVERYTHING SHE DOES AND DOESN’T TO HER IS FINE. She knows to expect shit in her romantic relationships (loyalty), she’ll be pissed at her parents, but she has no idea how to have a fucking friendship.
She can stay dead, because she wasn’t living and she damn sure wasn’t living for herself.
What the fuck would be her regret about staying dead? Seriously. Let’s all think about Bonnie the way she is on the show and not the way we wish her ass was. WHAT would be her regret about staying dead? That she didn’t get to see Elena graduate? That she didn’t get to do more for Elena? THAT SHE WASN’T ABLE TO GIVE ELENA ONE LAST THING AND BRING JEREMY BACK TO LIFE?!
How do I feel about Bonnie dying? The same way I felt when she ended up sending Sheila to a hell dimension because she has no fucking idea how to dial it back when it comes to Elena: THAT’S WHAT SHE GETS! I don’t care.
That’s how I feel.
Someone on Tumblr thinks Bonnie at graduation is actually her as a ghost, and she’s not going to tell anyone she’s dead. I would love nothing more than to see how deeply Bonnie’s slave mentality runs where she’s actually fucking DEAD and she’s STILL not demanding for anyone to notice her. That’s exactly what I want to see next episode, and I truly want to see it happen.
I’m offended as hell as a Black woman watching this show that my representation, my self-insert (because everyone would like a self-insert who already looks like them), my wish-fulfillment is this Black idiot who doesn’t know how to stop sacrificing herself for her White friend. I DON’T EVEN HAVE WHITE AMERICAN FRIENDS IRL, PRODUCERS AND WRITERS!
White fans, on this show alone, get varying self-inserts. What do I get? Bonnie Bennett. The only fucking idiot who has NO life of her own and would, and has, give all for Elena, including her fucking life, while that damn sentiment isn’t returned in the slightest.
It makes so much sense that her ass died underground in a rocky, dusty cave, ALONE, while Elena’s above ground sharing a nice moment with her brother, one of the people she cared about more than she cared about Bonnie (Stefan, Damon, and Alaric are ahead of Bonnie on that list).
I hate her and her “strong” ass.
Bonnie has no desires of her own outside of giving to Elena. There’s nothing she wants for herself. She claims all three of her power sources and it’s to give Elena something.
Elena’s hurt matters to Bonnie more than her own. Bonnie can’t bear to see Elena in pain, but she’s a Black woman so she doesn’t mind holding in her own suffering WHILE taking on Elena’s.